My journey to live from Love continues and I have to admit that it has been really challenging lately.   I am going back to repetitive thought patterns, which are all dead ends and very emotionally draining.  Part of me knows that I should just ignore my mind, but part of me still believes it.  Next you know I am over analyzing everything.  I start feeling paralyzed, I cannot create, I am scared that every decision I make might be the wrong one.  Needless to say I stop enjoying life and am unable to live in the moment.   When this happens the whole love thing goes down the drain.

A big problem for me is my identification with my thinking mind.  But this is such a common thing in our  and as a consequence being unable to even feel my heart and live in the present.  I get taken away by one thought after another.  I create big wonderful dream worlds only to see them crash. Meanwhile life is going by.  And love is now in the present moment.  I was just reading Practicing the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and here are two quotes that I found helpful.

“With the timeless dimension comes different kind of knowing, one that does not “kill” the spirit that lives within every creature and every thing.  A knowing that does not destroy the sacredness and mystery of life but contains a deep love and reverence for all that is.  A knowing of which the mind knows nothing”

But of course we do need to think.  Thinking after all is a tool.  I generally struggle knowing how and when to use it.  Here is a quote that I like and it helps me put my creative process in perspective.

“When you do use your mind, and particularly when a creative solution is needed, you oscillate every few minutes or so between thought and stillness, between mind and no-mind.  No-mind is consciousness without thought.  Only in that way it is possible to think creatively, because only in that way does thought have any real power.  Thought alone, when it is no longer connected with the much vaster realm of consciousness quickly becomes barren, insane, destructive.”

from Practicing the Power of Now
by Eckhart Tolle

by Kahlil Gibran

Mechanical Figures 00_IDEAS from Helena Bulaja on Vimeo.

A Bulgarian film about a song which all the Balkan cultures share.  However each nation claims it is their song.   The journey of the filmmmaker trying to figure out which song it is, becomes a great depiction of the conflict in the Balkans.