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Rejection

July 26th, 2010

I was contemplating and trying to make peace with my year of rejections.  Yes without fail in the last year every time I applied for money, professional development or mentorship for Green Dream, I got a ‘No’ for an answer.  I got the last of these string of rejections today.  Whenever I struggle with something I like browsing the internet and reading what people wrote about it.  This story drew my attention.

“It is said if you take pity on a moth struggling to break free from its cocoon and make its passage out easier, the moth will be forever deformed. What seems an act of kindness ends up being cruel. The hard struggle to emerge is essential for the initial pumping of blood into its crumpled wings. I don’t know enough about moths to know if this is an urban myth, … It is because making it easier would ultimately be less loving and cripple our spiritual development.”

quoted from http://net-burst.net/guilty/rejected.htm

After I read this I remembered the green moth that I filmed two summers ago in my house in Vancouver.  She was caught in my room and was trying to make her way out.   I decided to film her because I am enchanted by the playful flight of butterflies (and moths) and her green wings were perfect for the film I had just began: Green Dream.

Slow Media Manifesto

July 21st, 2010

Re-posting from http://www.slow-media.net/manifesto

Slow Media Manifesto (English)

The first decade of the 21st century, the so-called ‘naughties’, has brought profound changes to the technological foundations of the media landscape. The key buzzwords are networks, the Internet and social media. In the second decade, people will not search for new technologies allowing for even easier, faster and low-priced content production. Rather, appropriate reactions to this media revolution are to be developed and integrated politically, culturally and socially. The concept “Slow”, as in “Slow Food” and not as in “Slow Down”, is a key for this. Like “Slow Food”, Slow Media are not about fast consumption but about choosing the ingredients mindfully and preparing them in a concentrated manner. Slow Media are welcoming and hospitable. They like to share.

1. Slow Media are a contribution to sustainability. Sustainability relates to the raw materials, processes and working conditions, which are the basis for media production. Exploitation and low-wage sectors as well as the unconditional commercialization of user data will not result in sustainable media. At the same time, the term refers to the sustainable consumption of Slow Media.

2. Slow media promote Monotasking. Slow Media cannot be consumed casually, but provoke the full concentration of their users. As with the production of a good meal, which demands the full attention of all senses by the cook and his guests, Slow Media can only be consumed with pleasure in focused alertness.

3. Slow Media aim at perfection. Slow Media do not necessarily represent new developments on the market. More important is the continuous improvement of reliable user interfaces that are robust, accessible and perfectly tailored to the media usage habits of the people.

4. Slow Media make quality palpable. Slow Media measure themselves in production, appearance and content against high standards of quality and stand out from their fast-paced and short-lived counterparts – by some premium interface or by an aesthetically inspiring design.

5. Slow Media advance Prosumers, i.e. people who actively define what and how they want to consume and produce. In Slow Media, the active Prosumer, inspired by his media usage to develop new ideas and take action, replaces the passive consumer. This may be shown by marginals in a book or animated discussion about a record with friends. Slow Media inspire, continuously affect the users’ thoughts and actions and are still perceptible years later.

6. Slow Media are discursive and dialogic. They long for a counterpart with whom they may come in contact. The choice of the target media is secondary. In Slow Media, listening is as important as speaking. Hence ‘Slow’ means to be mindful and approachable and to be able to regard and to question one’s own position from a different angle.

7. Slow Media are Social Media. Vibrant communities or tribes constitute around Slow Media. This, for instance, may be a living author exchanging thoughts with his readers or a community interpreting a late musician’s work. Thus Slow Media propagate diversity and respect cultural and distinctive local features.

8. Slow Media respect their users. Slow Media approach their users in a self-conscious and amicable way and have a good idea about the complexity or irony their users can handle. Slow Media neither look down on their users nor approach them in a submissive way.

9. Slow Media are distributed via recommendations not advertising: the success of Slow Media is not based on an overwhelming advertising pressure on all channels but on recommendation from friends, colleagues or family. A book given as a present five times to best friends is a good example.

10. Slow Media are timeless: Slow Media are long-lived and appear fresh even after years or decades. They do not lose their quality over time but at best get some patina that can even enhance their value.

11. Slow Media are auratic: Slow Media emanate a special aura. They generate a feeling that the particular medium belongs to just that moment of the user’s life. Despite the fact that they are produced industrially or are partially based on industrial means of production, they are suggestive of being unique and point beyond themselves.

12. Slow Media are progressive not reactionary: Slow Media rely on their technological achievements and the network society’s way of life. It is because of the acceleration of multiple areas of life, that islands of deliberate slowness are made possible and essential for survival. Slow Media are not a contradiction to the speed and simultaneousness of Twitter, Blogs or Social Networks but are an attitude and a way of making use of them.

13. Slow Media focus on quality both in production and in reception of media content: Craftsmanship in cultural studies such as source criticism, classification and evaluation of sources of information are gaining importance with the increasing availability of information.

14. Slow Media ask for confidence and take their time to be credible. Behind Slow Media are real people. And you can feel that.

Stockdorf and Bonn, Jan 2, 2010

Benedikt Köhler
Sabria David
Jörg Blumtritt

Speak the following lines out loud:

July 13th, 2010

I love everything about me
I love my uncanny beauty and my bewildering pain
I love my hungry soul and my wounded longing
I love my flaws, my fears, and my scary frontiers

I will never forsake, betray, or deceive myself
I will always adore, forgive, and believe in myself
I will never refuse, abandon, or scorn myself
I will always amuse, delight, and redeem myself
*
The preceding oracle comes from Rob Brezny’s book, PRONOIA Is the Antidote for Paranoia: How the Whole World Is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings.

Does our language represent the changing nature of life?

June 10th, 2010

I just read an insightful blog post

How Our Language Determines Our Reality

by Dr.Morty Lefkoe

What I have  been contemplating resonated in a quote he used:

“As Ralph Strauch points out in his book The Reality Illusion:

Some languages are structured around quite different basic word- categories and relationships. They project very different pictures of the basic nature of reality as a result. The language of the Nootka Indians in the Pacific Northwest, for example, has only one principle word-category; it denotes happenings or events. A verbal form like “eventing” might better describe this word-category, except that such a form doesn’t sound right in English, with its emphasis on noun forms. We might think of Nootka as composed entirely of verbs, except that they take no subjects or objects as English verbs do. The Nootka, then, perceive the world as a stream of transient events, rather than as the collection of more or less permanent objects which we see. Even something which we see clearly as a physical object, like a house, the Nootka perceive of as a long-lived temporal event. The literal English translation of the Nootka concept might be something like “housing occurs;” or “it houses.”

read full post: How Our Language Determines Our Reality

Relating to Neurosis

May 17th, 2010

I am still trying to figure this one out, but it seems relevant to me right now.

posted at the Dharma Ocean Foundation

“Meditation is a way of permitting hang-ups of mind to churn themselves up. If we try to focus on our neurosis as a practice, that is an escape; and if we try to suppress it, that is also an escape. So the process is to relate with the neurosis as it is, in its true nature, the actual simplicity of it.  Then we begin to make some progress. As this process of relating to our hang-ups develops, at some point we at last begin to trust ourselves. We begin to develop some kind of faith and trust that what we have and what we are is, after all, not all that bad. It is workable, usable.” – Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche

That Something is Difficult Must Be One More Reason for Us to Do it

April 16th, 2010

“And you should not let yourself be confused in your solitude by the fact that there is something in you that wants to move out of it. This very wish, if you use it calmly and prudently and like a tool, will help you spread out your solitude over a great distance. Most people have (with the help of conventions) turned their solutions toward what is easy and toward the easiest side of the easy; but it is clear that we must trust in what is difficult; everything alive trusts in it, everything in Nature grows and defends itself any way it can and is spontaneously itself, tries to be itself at all costs and against all opposition. We know little, but that we must trust in what is difficult is a certainty that will never abandon us; it is good to be solitary, for solitude is difficult; that something is difficult must be one more reason for us to do it.”

“It is also good to love: because love is difficult. For one human being to love another human being: that is perhaps the most difficult task that has been entrusted to us, the ultimate task, the final test and proof, the work for which all other work is merely preparation. That is why young people, who are beginners in everything, are not yet capable of love: it is something they must learn. With their whole being, with all their forces, gathered around their solitary, anxious, upward-beating heart, they must learn to love. But learning-time is always a long, secluded time ahead and far on into life, is – ; solitude, a heightened and deepened kind of aloneness for the person who loves. Loving does not at first mean merging, surrendering, and uniting with another person (for what would a union be of two people who are unclarified, unfinished, and still incoherent – ?), it is a high inducement for the individual to ripen, to become something in himself, to become world, to become world in himself for the sake of another person; it is a great, demanding claim on him, something that chooses him and calls him to vast distances. Only in this sense, as the task of working on themselves (“to hearken and to hammer day and night”), may young people use the love that is given to them. Merging and surrendering and every kind of communion is not for them (who must still, for a long, long time, save and gather themselves); it is the ultimate, is perhaps that for which human lives are as yet barely large enough.”

Reiner Maria Rilke

from Letters to a Young Poet,  Letter Seven

Love Wild Places

March 29th, 2010

“Many of us love truly wild places – stretches of forest where there are no paths, mountain valleys unseen by human eyes, the sea in a savage storm. And rightly so, we should love the wild places because they are so completely themselves, so beyond the contamination of human design. But ultimately what we long to find in wild places is closer to home. We are always seeking in the outside world the utter wildness that is actually our own innermost mind. This is not the thinking mind, but the primordial awareness that underlies our ordinary consciousness – an awareness that is blazing in its clarity, savage in its accuracy, terrifyingly vast, limitless in its depth, and supercharged with energy churning and roiling. When we experience this primordial wildness we are face to face with the source, the origin of all wildness, and our spirit is at peace.” – Reggie Ray

On Love

February 15th, 2010
“Love is a state of being.  Your love is not outside; it is deep within you.  You can never lose it, and cannot leave you.  It is not dependent on some other body, some external form.

In the stillness of your presence, you can feel your own formless and timeless reality as the unmanifested life that animates your physical form.  You can then feel the same life deep within every other human and every other creature.  you look beyond the veil of form and seperation.  This is the realization of oneness.  This is love.

Love is not selective, just as the light of the sun is not selective.  It does not make one person special. It is not exclusive.  Exclusivity is not the love of God but the “love” of ego. It is only the degree of intensity that differs [between people].

For love to flourish, the light of your presence needs to be strong enough so that you no longer get taken over by the thinker or the pain-body and mistake them for who you are.  To know yourself as the Being underneath the thinker, the stillness underneath the mental noise, the love and joy underneath the pain, is freedom, salvation, enlightenment.”

-from The Power of Now, Eckarte Tolle, p.154-155 (re-ordered by Fi)

Любовен Елексир №2

February 12th, 2010

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Любовен Елексир №1

February 12th, 2010

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Valentine’s Love Potion #7

February 10th, 2010

I made a special edition of Love Potions that you can send as Valentines
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Valentine’s Love Potion #6

February 10th, 2010

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Valentine’s Love Potion #5

February 10th, 2010

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#5 Allez dans un quartier     que vous visitez rarement  Répétez une fois par mois avec un nouveau quartier.Continuez le traitement pour au moins 6 mois.

Avertissement: Pour de meilleurs résultats utilisez  (BUS.)  ou (BIKE.)
Green Dream / Rêvert

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Valentine’s Love Potion #4

February 10th, 2010

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Valentine’s Love Potions #3

February 10th, 2010

Special Valentine’s Love Potions

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prenez une marche dans votre voisinage
arrêtez-vous à chaque arbre ou plante
et remerciez-le/la de nettoyer l’air
répétez chaque jour pendant une semaine minimum (thanks Julie Crapaud)

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Learning to Love you More

February 4th, 2010
“The best art and writing is almost like an assignment; it is so vibrant that you feel compelled to make something in response. Suddenly it is clear what you have to do. For a brief moment it seems wonderfully easy to live and love and create breathtaking things. In this section we have archived some of the work that has commanded us in this way. In a sense, these are assignments — in the same way that the ocean gives the assignment of breathing deeply, and kissing instructs us to stop thinking.”

http://www.learningtoloveyoumore.com/love/index.php

Street Art Inspiration

February 3rd, 2010

I recently met someone who has a street art blog www.swapbox.wordpress.com.  I am not sure what it is about street art, but I always find it really inspiring.

here are some of the pieces

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http://swapbox.wordpress.com/2010/01/25/bring-the-piano-back-hartmans/

Swap Box

http://swapbox.wordpress.com/2010/01/10/new-orleans-thoughts-part-one/

Street Art World Wide

brachappy

http://swapbox.wordpress.com/2009/10/12/street-installation-goodness/

Jonathan Harris collecting stories

February 3rd, 2010

Interesting stuff.  Also neat to see some similarities with the way I interviewed people about Love.  The collective consciousness speaking…

Weekly Love Potion #2

February 1st, 2010

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Weekly Love Potion (little exercise)

January 25th, 2010

Love Potion #1

Anybody can use this image as long as they credit Maia Iotzova and include the link www.greendreammedia.com

Looking for a Co-Producer

January 18th, 2010

Green Dream (www.greendreammedia.com) is looking for a film co-producer!

Green Dream chronicles the journey of Maia Iotzova, a Canadian-Bulgarian documentary filmmaker as she sets out to explore the complicated relationship human beings have with nature.  Her process has led to the creation of this film, which asks the very relevant question, why do we destroy what we love?

Synopsis

Film d’auteur, 60 min

Perhaps this film is a story about a little girl and a grown woman who live between two different worlds of order and chaos, prosperity and struggle, short grass and tall grass.

It is also a story that takes everything and anything that is GREEN, stretches it out, folds it up and turns it on its side in an attempt to understand the troubled relationship between humans and nature.

But most of all this is a story about Love.

Financial Compensation

The co-producer’s fee will be a percentage of the budget and will dependent on the funds raised for the completion of the project from the point the co-producer gets involved.

Necessary Qualifications/Skills Required:

-       You are experienced in producing film (documentary, or fiction) and might have some experience with New Media.

-       You are ready to try something new and would like to be a part of an atypical creative experience

-       You have experience in Producing in the Film/TV/New Media/Art or Non-Profit fields.

-       You are able to think conventionally AND experimentally about ways to get money and fund projects.  This also applies to the way you approach outreach, marketing, release and distribution of the film.

-       You have good administrative, organizational and budgeting skills

-       You are ready to contribute to a project with your creative as well as your pragmatic expertise.

-       You are comfortable working on a project in an intuitive way where the final product is allowed to emerge from the process.

-       You like to produce work, which expresses your love for life.

What the project has to offer:

-       The chance to be on the cutting edge of artistic documentary cinema

-       Working with a Director who incorporates multi disciplinary approaches from film/visual art/new media/ animation/performance art/social change and activist fields/ personal development and spiritual fields/life

-       Green Dream experiments with an intuitive way of discovering the story.  The goal is to be honest, playful and humble.  While emphasis is on the process artistic merit and high production quality are kept as important elements.

-       A chance to work with a Directrice, who is a hard working visionary and believes in living her dreams (perhaps, in the process inspiring others to do so)

-       A project which is in its mid stage of completion, with 70% of production being funded and completed

-       A project, which has been inspiring people to live their higher potential

-       A project, which has accumulated a web and a real life community in the process of its creation (www.greendreammedia.com/blog)

One sheet, detailed film treatment and updated video teaser is available upon request by contacting Maia Iotzova – maiavideo@gmail.com

Green Dream Media’s Vision

One of my favorite quotes says:

“Everyone wants to have a revolution but nobody wants to do the dishes.”

I want to expose the process of change and transformation in everyday life.  Green Dream is about creating a revolution in the process of doing the dishes and changing the world one heart at a time.

Commitment = Letting Go

January 18th, 2010

I have been contemplating commitment a bit more.  I realized that interestingly my fear of commitment came from fear of letting go.  I could see myself being stuck because I was holding on to too much.   On one hand I want to take all my options with me, and I am not willing to let go of any of them “if I let go of this I will loose it forever”, “but maybe this will come in handy, so I should hold it as tight as I can”.  So it is a bit hard to move forward when I am holding onto things.

On another hand I am too scared to make a choice because “what if I am wrong”  “what if this road is a dead end”  “what if it leads to a lonely, scary place “.   To continue I have to let go of wanting to make the right choice.  So how do you let go?

I think part of my problem is that I think letting go means loosing something forever, it means separation and pain.  Here is a good explanation of letting go from http://www.buddhanet.net/4noble14.htm

“When you find yourself attached, remember that ‘letting go’ is not ‘getting rid of’ or ‘throwing away’. If I’m holding onto this clock and you say, ‘Let go of it!’, that doesn’t mean ‘throw it out’. I might think that I have to throw it away because I’m attached to it, but that would just be the desire to get rid of it. We tend to think that getting rid of the object is a way of getting rid of attachment. But if I can contemplate attachment, this grasping of the clock, I realise that there is no point in getting rid of it – it’s a good clock; it keeps good time and is not heavy to carry around. The clock is not the problem. The problem is grasping the clock. So what do I do? Let it go, lay it aside – put it down gently without any kind of aversion. Then I can pick it up again, see what time it is and lay it aside when necessary.”

“Now with personal problems and obsessions, to let go of them is just that much. It is not a matter of analysing and endlessly making more of a problem about them, but of practising that state of leaving things alone, letting go of them. At first, you let go but then you pick them up again because the habit of grasping is so strong. But at least you have the idea. Even when I had that insight into letting go, I let go for a moment but then I started grasping by thinking: ‘I can’t do it, I have so many bad habits!’ But don’t trust that kind of nagging, disparaging thing in yourself. It is totally untrustworthy. It is just a matter of practising letting go. The more you begin to see how to do it, then the more you are able to sustain the state of non-attachment.”
In my case I think I simply need to take one road and see where it leads me, without worrying so much if it is the right road or not.

Which made me think of Robert Frost

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same, 10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. 15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Comittment (how do you spell that?)

January 8th, 2010

Yes that is true, I never know how to spell committment…

I love new opportunities, traveling to new places, making new friends, starting new projects with many many layers. Generally I love to do everything, so commitment to a specific few or even one thing does not come naturally to me, and actually makes me very nervous.

Recently this fear has been really eating away at me.  Over Christmas I started reading about commitment phobia.  I like this exert, perfect for my love challenge:

“I firmly believe that showing commitment to something, or someone, is one of life’s most empowering (and liberating) experiences. It’s how we achieve; how we grow; how we learn; and how we love.

Yes, commitment is love.

From the Self Help Collective on All About Fear of Commitment

And I love this quote:

“When women hold off from marrying men, we call it independence.
When men hold off from marrying women, we call it fear of commitment.”

– Warren Farrell

Lack of Success = Lack of Action

January 8th, 2010

I got this e-mail in my mailbox today.  It came from Dr.Morty Lefkoe to me.  Well more like his big mailing list which I got signed up to after I did his free internet program on eliminating limited beliefs.  www.recreateyourlife.com

I do like what his says here:

“Over the years I’ve seen one characteristic in common
with most people who don’t succeed.

And, no, it’s not bad strategy or lack of good ideas,
although those are significant barriers too.

The main barrier to success is lack of action.

If this is your problem–

If you need a greater ability to…

*Persist, despite obstacles, until you succeed
*Confidently take on projects even if they involve some
risk of failure
*Speak up even if you think others don’t care or won’t
approve
*Stop focusing on what others think and start focusing
on what you really want to do
*Take immediate action to achieve your goals….”

After all success is a relative concept.

Make 2010 the year of LOVE

January 3rd, 2010

Wishing you Happy 2010 with a collection of cell phone snapshots of hearts.   May this year bring love to the world!

Since I am still Love challenged, the Green Dream Love challenge will continue.  I am making the commitment to dedicate the whole year to Love and to living in the present.   You can do that too.
2009 in hearts

Stay tuned for more inspiration, reflections and sometimes frustrations from this journey.

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